Saturday, March 23, 2013

One Little Word - Healing, Slice 23 of 31

I put off posting, I put off writing, kind of like I've put off taking care of myself.  Hmm parallels?  In November I started thinking about what I would choose for my one little word.  Last year I chose gratitude.  It was powerful when I stuck with it.  Story of my life so often I don't stick with things.  Diet, saving money, getting organized the list goes on.

The word I chose was healing.  I wasn't really sick just kind of tired, over-weight,  joints hurting, hormones bouncing, moody.  I think I just wanted to feel better and I think I hoped it would help me with my list.  You know lose weight, save money, get organized.  That list

January 2, 2013 I had an appointment with a new doctor.  I needed a new prescription and it was deemed I hadn't seen my previous doctor recently enough to still be considered his patient so I would have to re-establish.  Did I mention that last year I had gone to his Physician Assistant.  

When I was trying to schedule this appointment with him in early December the Clinic told me I would have to wait until May for the next appointment.  I explained I needed a refill for my thyroid medication.  They weren't helpful.  So I asked if they could schedule me with a different doctor.  

My appointment was January 2, 2013.  He looked at the lab-work that was done in September.  My liver enzymes were slightly raised.  So they ran a new lab.  Same results.  Long story short I have had enough tests run that I now have a favorite vampire.  (I realize this is dark humor and that phlebotomists play an amazingly important role.)

Part of my dread is that I am a "difficult poke".  

I decided to use Instagrok to search "healing".  One of the key facts connected with the search was
  • Healing comes from taking responsibility: to realize that it is you - and no one else - that creates your thoughts, your feelings, and your actions.

Well the upside of all these tests.  They have all been negative.  They still don't know why my enzymes are mildly elevated.  Their concern is that it has been elevated for an extended period of time.

One of the things that I have recently done was to have the dreaded "Colonoscopy".  The prep is far worse than the procedure.  

The good news is with all these tests we now have a baseline for the future.  And I know my health is pretty good.  As I ponder what I have learned it is the importance of taking responsibility for my own health.  


  1. Healing is a great word. It could go in so many directions. Glad you are taking care of yourself!

  2. This is a really thoughtful reflection. The process of getting established with a new doctor is really annoying but it sounds like things are going well for you there. It is interesting that healing is about taking responsibility and making sure you are doing what is needed. Thanks for sharing.

  3. First-this just came across my Facebook page, from a local bookstore: There is a bookstore listed in Bozeman! Are you nearby?
    And second, congrats on the taking responsibility-I wish you well. You didn't say, but I hope you like your new doctor. I have a lovely woman who is so helpful, so count myself lucky. I stuck with a gyn for a long while because I liked her so much. When I went on Medicare I couldn't do that anymore. Change is not easy! Best to you, Ruth!

  4. I'm glad healing has brought good news for you even through the hassle of finding a new doctor. I've heard a great deal about choosing a word to focus on for the year, but I haven't tried it. I may have to. I'm intrigued.

  5. Billings is about 150 miles from Bozeman.

  6. Why is it so hard to take care of ourselves? I struggle with this too. I go through good phases and then I need refocusing.

    Good news that you are relatively healthy. What a great idea to focus with one word.

  7. I think, as teachers, we want to give and give and give. Sometimes we do have to stop and do something for ourselves in order to keep giving. I do like your chosen word!

  8. Kudos to you for taking charge of your life!Your OLW is a great word. Look forward to reading an update later on this year.

  9. The most powerful part of this post for me is where you define healing as taking responsibility. I seem to have to remind myself of that periodically and then to choose happy and healthy. It sounds so easy, but as you know it isn't. Wishing you healing today and happiness.


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