I put off posting, I put off writing, kind of like I've put off taking care of myself. Hmm parallels? In November I started thinking about what I would choose for my one little word. Last year I chose gratitude. It was powerful when I stuck with it. Story of my life so often I don't stick with things. Diet, saving money, getting organized the list goes on.
The word I chose was healing. I wasn't really sick just kind of tired, over-weight, joints hurting, hormones bouncing, moody. I think I just wanted to feel better and I think I hoped it would help me with my list. You know lose weight, save money, get organized. That list
January 2, 2013 I had an appointment with a new doctor. I needed a new prescription and it was deemed I hadn't seen my previous doctor recently enough to still be considered his patient so I would have to re-establish. Did I mention that last year I had gone to his Physician Assistant.
When I was trying to schedule this appointment with him in early December the Clinic told me I would have to wait until May for the next appointment. I explained I needed a refill for my thyroid medication. They weren't helpful. So I asked if they could schedule me with a different doctor.
My appointment was January 2, 2013. He looked at the lab-work that was done in September. My liver enzymes were slightly raised. So they ran a new lab. Same results. Long story short I have had enough tests run that I now have a favorite vampire. (I realize this is dark humor and that phlebotomists play an amazingly important role.)
Part of my dread is that I am a "difficult poke".
I decided to use Instagrok to search "healing". One of the key facts connected with the search was
- Healing comes from taking responsibility: to realize that it is you - and no one else - that creates your thoughts, your feelings, and your actions.
Well the upside of all these tests. They have all been negative. They still don't know why my enzymes are mildly elevated. Their concern is that it has been elevated for an extended period of time.
One of the things that I have recently done was to have the dreaded "Colonoscopy". The prep is far worse than the procedure.
The good news is with all these tests we now have a baseline for the future. And I know my health is pretty good. As I ponder what I have learned it is the importance of taking responsibility for my own health.
